perpisahan

just a word that i can explain here... "PERPISAHAN"

tibe-tibe pagi-pagi lingkungan pukul 5.45 pagi.. aku jadi sebak untuk berpisah dengan kawan-kawan setelah tiga tahun bersama... sumpah masa makan-makan ari tu xde ase sgt.. tibe bile tengok rumah korang sume gelap mase aku jalan nak g mamak td... aku terus sebak.. maknenye aku lambat lagik nak jumpe korang... entah dapat entah tidak jumpe korang lagik... ajal maut ditangan Allah... seandainya itulah hari terakhir kita jumpa.. aku harap korang maafkan aku dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki... korang ingat x?? when we get first meet mase sem 1.. tak kenal langsung korang ni... mesti mase tu pun korg takut nak kawan ngan aku sebab besar sgt.. hahhaa
... dan sekarang aku sedar.. dah macam-macam benda kita lalui... happy...sedih...gadoh..kecik hati.. macam-macam.. aku dh rase korg macam adik-beradik sbb walau macam mane besar pon kite gaduh.. at last kite tetap baik balik... kuasa Allah... aku bersyukur sebab Allah temukan aku dengan kawan-kawan yang best macam korang... cukup lengkap hidup aku walaupun aku jauh dari mak dan abah n adik2... sbb kat sini aku ade mak ( puan muna) yg banyak bimbing kite .... aku ade abah( en kz ) entah kenape aku aggap en kz cam bapak aku... sebab dye byk marah kite tanda dye sayang gile kat kite... aku ade kakak (kak anim , kak long ) walaupun jarak umur tak jauh mane korang cam kakak aku... sumpa <3 korg... aku ade adik (kecik, aji, nisha) sumpa aku angap korang cm adik aku... sbb korang manje sgt... ni la yang aku pling sedey nak tgalkan (syera,ain r,ain o,teyha,ika) sumpa sayang sangat2 kat korg :'(... syera..aku nak ko taw satu benda... byk kali aku kene marah ngn ko.. tp sikit pon tak terasa.. sbb aku taw ko mrh aku sbb syg kat aq.. kite wat assgment same2,final projek moment paling perit, sakit, happy ase cm nak putus ase pon ade.. ko bg semangat kite supaya teruskan... ainnnnnnnnn!!!!!sumpa rindu nak dgr ko jerit .. nak dengar ko marah aku... aku akan rindu sume tuh..ko sorg jek yg pagil aku budak kecilk.. gile tak pnah org pgil aku budak kecik wlau hakikat aku besar tahap gaban ni....:'(
ain r ...ko kawan paling rajin... gile tak rajin sume ko siap dulu.. aku yakin ko mmber aku paling berjaya one day..gudluck... teha.. arggghhhhh rindu kau nak cubit lengan ko... sedap wokk... hahaha
ikaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! nak ko... slalu gomol2 time stress kan.. rindu ko... nak peluk ko... ingat tak time wat assignment mesti aku baring kat ko...
insan ni yang paling banyak aku wat dosa..ema :sorry sgt2..aku harap ssgt ko dah maafkan aku..mmg aku ni mulut jahat..sorry ema...aku tak lupe pada ann,mira,kila,aidah,daie,aini,syila n ina....korang besh...
tok dyla,huda ,nad tyra....semuanya Allah dah tentukan saat bergaduh...touching...happy...sekarang aku ase segalanya dah pulih...sume ni kuasa Allah dan semangat persahabatan yang ada dalam diri ko.. keep that spirit geng...
n last aku ade abg-abg yang care sal aku... (john,epul,is,syed,yap,faiz,thunder,epit)..tengs weyhh
betul tak aku cakap even aku jauh dari family.. aku ade family lengkap kat sini. terima kasih kawan-kawan... aku doakan Allah permudahkan urusan korang semua.....
sedih weyhhh.... :'(....
ta tahan air mata aku... :'( korang nmpak jek aku ni ganas.....tp aku la manusia paling kuat sentap..
hahahaha.... :'( :)
ingat nanti kawen jangan lupe jemput....

:'(......



saya sentiase ada dengan awak.. walaupun saya tak dapat fokus kat awak ketika saya sibuk... saya dah tak sanggup tengok awak nangis sbb lahanat tuh... tolong la redha ika.... saya taw awak sayang dye sesangat2... dah bpe juta kali saya tengok awak dating ngn dye.. sya taw betape sygnye awak kat dye... sy tao semua tuh... tp tolong la ika... saya sendiri sedih ngn ape yg dye dh wat kat awak... terang2 dye tuh munafik..takan awak nak jadikan insan hina ni sbg suami awak... dye tak mampu bimbing awak.. dye sendiri terkontang kanting cari identiti.. dye tak mampu ika... firasat ayah awak tepat... awak taw kenapa ayah awak tak suke dye...
ayah awak dapat rase dye tak mampu gembirakan puterinya..
seorang ayah tak mampu beri puterinya pada insan yang lemah macam jantan tuh...
dye lelaki paling lemah saya pernah jumpe... kekuatan dye ade pada Z.... bukan pada awak..
saya buat post ni bukan nak buat awak menangis... saya nak awak sedar.. mencintai tak semestinya memiliki...
mesti ada hikmah besar yang Allah beri pada awak sebalik kekecewaan yang awak alami...
pasti ada...
biarkan dye jadi secebis kenangan untuk awak simpan sebagai pengajaran masa akan datang...
saya tatao bile lagik saya akan nasihatkan awak.. sebab lepas ni saya akan tinggalkan awak.. awak takan nangis lagi depan saya... awak takan dapat cerita semua ni dengan saya lagi face to face.. dan saya takan ada untuk tepuk bahu dan usap lembut belakang awak bile awak gugurkan airmata...
kerana saya sangat sayang kat awak... dan saya tak nak awak terus jadi mangsa janji-janji manis lelaki tak bertangungjawab....
pilihla lelaki yg mampu membimbing kite ke jalan NYA.. kerana hanya dariNYA yang kita mampu berserah...
i love u <3


one word can i say "AWESOME" seriously i get what i really want.. friend who willing have fun although its so tired.... but u know whut the best thing we never fell tired... when i have happy laugh n start to make up something out f box... ya damn besh...... hahhahahaha... sooo happy...

actualy the story began when me n my bff decide to karaoke ... since yesterday we plan.. but almost many time im thinking to go.. coz we have no transport... so today we make the crazy mazy things.... hahahaha... we get the bus from home... then makan first...so what the amazing makan time are treat by someone mysterious... so good... cos save.. then walking to karaoke center...
in one hour... we karaoke with 5 song each of us... hahaha... tak puas ok??? but its ok... actually we are having reduce cos enjoy outing... so we back by walking ahaaa... u know what that is far from my home.... we stop at mamak having teh o ais n roti canai.... sound like penat so with hope calling my bff bf ... with hope he can come n pick we up... damn it... he wont. ok fine... i'll decide to call my scandal... hahahaha.... bodoh!!!

our dialog
me:"hey... kat mane??"
him: "rumah, why syg?" (euwwwww... but tahan je la...)
me: act i was stuck at mamak .. n wanted to back home.. can u??
him: ok i'll be there... so u with??
me: friends!!
him: ok let your friend get back by herself.. coz i want to pick you out.. accompany me makan..!!
(wtf... takan aku nak tinggalkan kawan aku... bodoh ek kau ni??"
me: ummmm.... ok u just pick us then u send by friend back n i go with u k?"
him: tengok la dulu cam mane??
me: ok

in just a moment after i got a message
" babe i think u juz back first... kita kuar lewat2 sikit pon tak pe kan?"
ouhhhhh mampus la sama kau.. ingat aku hadap... hmmmmm.... annoying...
hmmmmmm..... lelaki tak boleh diharap....

at last .... last decision making is "JALAN KAKI LA" hahahaha but its best gilos kot... i dont care...
just jalan2.... time jalan memang tak rase pape... huhhhhhh bile sampai umah..., OMG perti woaaa tumit kitowg... hahaha sabar jela karaoek punye pasal kan??? update blog pon lewat pagi... so by tomorrow i'll upload pic taht we had snap while walking...
huhuhuuuhuhuh....


to BFF hope we can have fun like this next time... i wonder u are my best ever friend..., heheheh

to jantan2...
i prefer to lose u than friends......


happy.. bahagia...

i think this is the most happy post i have done yet... syabas awak!! hahaha
he... who bring happiness again in my life.. i know although im not in love with him at first.. now on i believe with the statement that told love someone who love you.. and its work ... i try love someone who really love me.. im very happy when he try to give all happiness to me.. im try to test him with many things... just wanted to see his patience to me... n Allah show me the truth... he is mine... he really know what i really want in my life, relationship and more.. at last i've found!!! yeaahhhhh i found... no more MR S... but his name still start with letter S... what ever.. do i care.. as long as my new MR S... give back who is me before.. no need to stuck all myfav food as well.. n the important thing im no need to create the other fake account to stalk him.. n i know ican fell his sincere...
Ya Allah give me little space of happiness....

B....
ILY
IMY
dun ever break my heart...
i believe u...
mwahh


ingat tak post saya yang zaman tok janggut tuh.. yang sal MR S...

yeahhhh sy gtaw pon ape response dye selepas sy luahkan segalanya... semuanya xmemberi ape2 kesan pd dye... u noe whut?? from now on im doing happy without him in my heart as well...

i just make up everything about him lose in my heart n mind after i asking kawan dye... how could i control this felling to him... honestly since that tyme... kawan dye just ask me to forget him.. n stop to treat something fool out of my self... nak taw ape bende bodoh yg aku pnah wat... here we go the list of ::


1. block rice from get in to my tummy... damn

2. no contact with other guy... konon2 nak tgu dye la.... wtf??

3. PM dye sesuatu yg worse bajet cm dye nak la kat aku.... gth!!!!

4. pergi tulis kat blog... fb yang aku cinta dye sgt2... what so rubbish....

5. once again im suffer without nasi in 3 months onwards... cam haram..

6.create account fake cz nak tgok update sal dye... so worse


byk lagi la... malas nak list penuh kat sini... huh!!! betapa bodoh dan hina ase diri aku ni...


yeahhhh cinta tak boleh dipkase but can he just tell me...

"wani i cant with u" so fine i'll leave without wait...

betapa buduh nye aku pergi tunggu dye..... Penghargaan tertinggi pernah aku ase...

Penghargaan = Penghinaan.

kalo nak cite panjang pon tak gune.... to those read up my blog... sorry la .. i just update my blog.. bile stress n takde tmpat mengadu.....

kepada kau MR S....

aku tak salahkan kau....

bukan salah kau....

semua ni kebodohan aku mencintai kau....

mengharap pada kau....

menanti kau......

semua ni salah aku....

from now onwards im not be fell to think and to remind about u anymore...

kau jangan tersa sangta.. aku tak salahkan kau...

kau lelaki yang baik.. semoga Allah temukan kau dengan wanita idaman kau....